Someone once told me I needed balance. “If only you had balance,” they said, “you’d do so well.” We’ll never know whether it was their brevity and trust in my understanding of things or if it was my naivety but I never really understood what they had meant. I know now that they had meant a balance of thoughts; a calm in the spiral which is perpetually visible on my face. They wanted me to slow down for once, and balance the inside. It is only recently that I’ve realised that they never meant for me to be stretched in all possible directions but to take a deep breath every now and then, and let it all be, then let it all go. They wanted me to slow down for once, and all this time, I kept thinking I wasn’t quick enough.